Published by: Admin JoJo Matthews
Jealousy, what an ugly emotion and an ugly definition of a word. Dictionary.com defines the word as follows: feeling resentment against someone because of that person’s rivalry, success or advantages.
So maybe envy is a better word, more healthy?
Nope, it’s just as ugly as jealousy, envy: a feeling of discontent or covetousness with regard to another’s advances, successes, possessions etc.
Sadly it’s all something we have experienced one way or another, you are lying to yourself if you think otherwise, whether you speak it out loud, demonstrate it at all or keep the thoughts to yourself.
I hate that I have this emotion, it makes me feel like an ugly person. While I definitely have flaws I don’t like to think that I am an ugly person, rather a broken person that is constantly on the mends.
I do my best to stay positive, to cling to the small sliver of hope that my day will come but there are just some days that are so bad. I get so angry, so sad and so jealous because I have to contend with reality as well. My day may very well never come.
This is a choice I made, I knew the possibilities in the beginning.The thing is, I was already too far down the road to decide otherwise.
I am just a girl over here flaws and all trying to get through this thing we call life.
