Published by: JoJo Matthews
October 23rd, 2015 I will officially join the ranks of prison wife….well technically fiancée but whatever.
Its been a long 3 1/2 years at times I’ve wondered if I’m strong enough to make it on this journey. I live one day at a time sometimes one hour at a time. Which is great I guess because we are suppose to cherish every moment life gives us.
It is a relief to no longer feel in limbo. He can start his time in DOC and we can work our way to marriage and contact visits. There will actually be something we can countdown to.
I have been struggling with the fear that prison is going to change him in ways that I won’t like. I get they will see a lot of ugly stuff and a lot of shady stuff. I pray I’m enough beauty for him so he doesn’t lose who he is. He has grown into someone beautiful these past 3 1/2 years I would hate to see that gone.
He assures me prison isn’t going to change him. I’m not sure he has a total picture of what it will be like. He is so damn excited to get out of county. I don’t blame him county blows.
I pray for his soul everyday and hope we can beat the ugliness that will surround him.